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Sunday 1 December 2024

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Worship Rest

Here and Now
I woke up 4AM prayed for Stephen and Dad, prayed for Ciriaca and Mom, and all the people affecting me right now and went back to sleep around 5AM woke up again to seek GOD and HIS word. Mostly in the dawn, I am awakened by GOD to pray for the things that concern me because HE is concerned of them and so I am disturbed by them too but I ask GOD to help me to obey HIM whatever that HE wants me to do to change the situation or bring healing and restoration. I was assessing everything yesterday, Toni is very directive but she can be right and wrong... I realized how my will has not been as strong at it had been for GOD had already broken me just as HE is breaking Dad now but I pray he will not grow bitter but Dad will keep trusting GOD and grow in his faith despite his testing...


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Scriptures

Genesis 28:10-22

English Standard Version

Jacob's Dream

10 Jacob left Beersheba and went toward Haran. 11 And he came to a certain place and stayed there that night, because the sun had set. Taking one of the stones of the place, he put it under his head and lay down in that place to sleep. 12 And he dreamed, and behold, there was a ladder[a] set up on the earth, and the top of it reached to heaven. And behold, the angels of God were ascending and descending on it! 13 And behold, the Lord stood above it[b] and said, “I am the Lord, the God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac. The land on which you lie I will give to you and to your offspring. 14 Your offspring shall be like the dust of the earth, and you shall spread abroad to the west and to the east and to the north and to the south, and in you and your offspring shall all the families of the earth be blessed. 15 Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land. For I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you.” 16 Then Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I did not know it.” 17 And he was afraid and said, “How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven.”

18 So early in the morning Jacob took the stone that he had put under his head and set it up for a pillar and poured oil on the top of it. 19 He called the name of that place Bethel,[c] but the name of the city was Luz at the first. 20 Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me and will keep me in this way that I go, and will give me bread to eat and clothing to wear, 21 so that I come again to my father's house in peace, then the Lord shall be my God, 22 and this stone, which I have set up for a pillar, shall be God's house. And of all that you give me I will give a full tenth to you.”

ObservationThis word in the Parasha is the only positive reading I got and what I want is to cling to this WORD in my walk of faith. That GOD will never leave me until the end, HE will not leave me even as a sojourn in life, even if my parents are not with me, that HE will not leave me until HE has done all that HE has promised me. HE is my refuge, my strong tower, my deliverer, GOD will always be with me.

ApplicationI will put my hope in this truth, I will cling to HIS unfailing love and faithfulness. I have nothing on earth to cling to, to depend on, not even a love to call my own. For human love fails but GOD's love never fails, it always will be steadfast and constant for me. HIS Promises and HIS WORD remain true. HE is my fortress and my salvation, my hope in which I trust. 

PrayersDear AVI,HOLY is YOUR NAME O GOD! Great are YOU O GOD Almighty! When I think about my life, there is so many things I should be insecure about, so many things that I should be afraid of, but LORD YOU are my strength and my hope, YOU are the reason for my being, how blessed I am O GOD that YOU have called me and chosen me to dwell in YOUR house and enjoy YOUR Presence but LORD let me never to fail YOU, let me not sin against YOU just as David or Saul did, but enable me to please YOU like Ruth and Joseph, but wow how terrible the beginning of their lives has been. O GOD Almighty, please GOD I beg YOU please do not give me challenges and trials that I cannot deal with and if YOU give me challenges, please be my strength right away. Please heal all my pain and take away all my fears O GOD Almighty! Take care of me and all that YOU want me to do. And I pray for Stephen to know YOU and love YOU, to follow YOU even though he is unhappy about the Christians that he has known. I pray O GOD that YOU will let him to look at YOU and YOU alone, that he will seek YOU and YOUR Face. O GOD I don't understand why I still feel the love I have for him, when I already told myself it's over, when there's nothing to hope for, but my love for Stephen remains and I pray that YOU will answer my prayers for him O GOD, I pray that he will seek YOU for his own because YOU are drawing him to you and his mother too. I pray O GOD, that YOU speak continually to him and enable him to respond to YOUR Call. I pray that YOU break every chain and hindrance that bound him from coming to YOU In the Name of JESUS! Save and deliver even Jannie Rose, Jenifer, Jonathan, Rosielyn, Carlo and Sandro that they will turn from their wicked ways and turn to YOU. O GOD Almighty, give me joy as I continue to live my life for YOU O GOD Almighty, help me to keep trusting YOU. Please take care of me and my family and everything that concerns me, please take care of me. For unto YOU belong all the glory, honor and praises O GOD!!! YOURS alone is Kingdom and the power forever and ever!
In the NAME of YESHUA my GOD and KING, Amen!

23:34Here and NowI felt so happy and loved after I talked to Achi Grace this afternoon because I asked her permission to pray for me regarding my plan to confess my heart to Stephen. She is discerning and she is my spiritual mother and so I am asking her to pray with me but what was supposed to be a meeting for my need to be counseled turned out to be a bonding moment that we should have done after I came back to church since last year. But this year everything is coming to place because she gave me blessing to confess my heart to the one I love. This meeting had such a positive effect that after that moment, I became so happy that I decided to forgive and chat one of the people who hurt me last year - Jay! I wanted him to work for us to drive the motorcycle, and to teach me dance! We will see how that happens because we agreed to meet on Wednesday. My heart is also so worried that it will crash the moment that I show Stephen my heart and he doesn't respond the same way. But I want to confess to him to release myself from the misery that I have been feeling loving him for nothing, I want to confess so that I can know whether I should move on or move our relationship to the next level. I pray today that GOD will give this man to me because I love this man but I want him to love me too, and love me first, but it doesn't matter who loves first, because JESUS loved me first and so I can love first and if that is what it takes to be loved in return, then I will lay down my pride and love first because GOD taught me how.





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