Friday, 28 Adar 5785 / March 28, 2025
Event
Work, Interview encoder, Dad's rehab today
Here and Now
I woke up quite early 4:30AM because I slept at 8PM last night after eating Amigo's Cheese when I was not supposed to snack on anything... I just felt hungry and I ate some snacks. I know it's still Ramadan but I am not fasting like before. I slept early and when I woke up at 9:30PM I realized I had dreamt of Randy trying to have sex with me in a public toilet. It was the strangest dream! I wasn't as bothered about it because I know I don't feel anything for Randy at all. He may look like Stephen but he is so laid back and just nonchalant, not taking on family responsibilities, I do not feel attracted to his physical beauty which is so much like Stephen because his inward personality is so far from Stephen.
SOAP
Scriptures
Torah: Parshat Pekudei, 6th Portion (Shemot (Exodus) 40:17-40:27)
Balaam's Third Oracle
1 When Balaam saw that it pleased the Lord to bless Israel, he did not go, as at other times, to look for omens, but set his face toward the wilderness. 2 And Balaam lifted up his eyes and saw Israel camping tribe by tribe. And the Spirit of God came upon him, 3 and he took up his discourse and said,
“The oracle of Balaam the son of Beor, the oracle of the man whose eye is opened,
4 the oracle of him who hears the words of God, who sees the vision of the Almighty,
falling down with his eyes uncovered:
5 How lovely are your tents, O Jacob, your encampments, O Israel!
6 Like palm groves[b] that stretch afar, like gardens beside a river,
like aloes that the Lord has planted, like cedar trees beside the waters.
7 Water shall flow from his buckets, and his seed shall be in many waters;
his king shall be higher than Agag, and his kingdom shall be exalted.
8 God brings him out of Egypt and is for him like the horns of the wild ox;
he shall eat up the nations, his adversaries, and shall break their bones in pieces
and pierce them through with his arrows.
9 He crouched, he lay down like a lion and like a lioness; who will rouse him up?
Blessed are those who bless you, and cursed are those who curse you.”
10 And Balak's anger was kindled against Balaam, and he struck his hands together. And Balak said to Balaam, “I called you to curse my enemies, and behold, you have blessed them these three times. 11 Therefore now flee to your own place. I said, ‘I will certainly honor you,’ but the Lord has held you back from honor.” 12 And Balaam said to Balak, “Did I not tell your messengers whom you sent to me, 13 ‘If Balak should give me his house full of silver and gold, I would not be able to go beyond the word of the Lord, to do either good or bad of my own will. What the Lord speaks, that will I speak’? 14 And now, behold, I am going to my people. Come, I will let you know what this people will do to your people in the latter days.”
Balaam's Final Oracle
15 And he took up his discourse and said, “The oracle of Balaam the son of Beor,
the oracle of the man whose eye is opened,
16 the oracle of him who hears the words of God, and knows the knowledge of the Most High,
who sees the vision of the Almighty, falling down with his eyes uncovered:
17 I see him, but not now; I behold him, but not near:
a star shall come out of Jacob, and a scepter shall rise out of Israel;
it shall crush the forehead[c] of Moab and break down all the sons of Sheth.
18 Edom shall be dispossessed; Seir also, his enemies, shall be dispossessed. Israel is doing valiantly.
19 And one from Jacob shall exercise dominion and destroy the survivors of cities!”
20 Then he looked on Amalek and took up his discourse and said,
“Amalek was the first among the nations, but its end is utter destruction.”
21 And he looked on the Kenite, and took up his discourse and said,
“Enduring is your dwelling place, and your nest is set in the rock.
22 Nevertheless, Kain shall be burned when Asshur takes you away captive.”
23 And he took up his discourse and said, “Alas, who shall live when God does this?
24 But ships shall come from Kittim and shall afflict Asshur and Eber;
and he too shall come to utter destruction.”
25 Then Balaam rose and went back to his place. And Balak also went his way.
Luke 7:11-35
English Standard Version
Jesus Raises a Widow's Son
11 Soon afterward[a] he went to a town called Nain, and his disciples and a great crowd went with him. 12 As he drew near to the gate of the town, behold, a man who had died was being carried out, the only son of his mother, and she was a widow, and a considerable crowd from the town was with her. 13 And when the Lord saw her, he had compassion on her and said to her, “Do not weep.” 14 Then he came up and touched the bier, and the bearers stood still. And he said, “Young man, I say to you, arise.” 15 And the dead man sat up and began to speak, and Jesus[b] gave him to his mother. 16 Fear seized them all, and they glorified God, saying, “A great prophet has arisen among us!” and “God has visited his people!” 17 And this report about him spread through the whole of Judea and all the surrounding country.
Messengers from John the Baptist
18 The disciples of John reported all these things to him. And John, 19 calling two of his disciples to him, sent them to the Lord, saying, “Are you the one who is to come, or shall we look for another?” 20 And when the men had come to him, they said, “John the Baptist has sent us to you, saying, ‘Are you the one who is to come, or shall we look for another?’” 21 In that hour he healed many people of diseases and plagues and evil spirits, and on many who were blind he bestowed sight. 22 And he answered them, “Go and tell John what you have seen and heard: the blind receive their sight, the lame walk, lepers[c] are cleansed, and the deaf hear, the dead are raised up, the poor have good news preached to them. 23 And blessed is the one who is not offended by me.”
24 When John's messengers had gone, Jesus[d] began to speak to the crowds concerning John: “What did you go out into the wilderness to see? A reed shaken by the wind? 25 What then did you go out to see? A man dressed in soft clothing? Behold, those who are dressed in splendid clothing and live in luxury are in kings' courts. 26 What then did you go out to see? A prophet? Yes, I tell you, and more than a prophet. 27 This is he of whom it is written,
“‘Behold, I send my messenger before your face,
who will prepare your way before you.’
28 I tell you, among those born of women none is greater than John. Yet the one who is least in the kingdom of God is greater than he.” 29 (When all the people heard this, and the tax collectors too, they declared God just,[e] having been baptized with the baptism of John, 30 but the Pharisees and the lawyers rejected the purpose of God for themselves, not having been baptized by him.)
31 “To what then shall I compare the people of this generation, and what are they like? 32 They are like children sitting in the marketplace and calling to one another,
“‘We played the flute for you, and you did not dance;
we sang a dirge, and you did not weep.’
33 For John the Baptist has come eating no bread and drinking no wine, and you say, ‘He has a demon.’ 34 The Son of Man has come eating and drinking, and you say, ‘Look at him! A glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners!’ 35 Yet wisdom is justified by all her children.”
Psalm 38:1-11
English Standard Version
Do Not Forsake Me, O Lord
A Psalm of David, for the memorial offering.
1 O Lord, rebuke me not in your anger, nor discipline me in your wrath!
2 For your arrows have sunk into me, and your hand has come down on me.
3 There is no soundness in my flesh because of your indignation;
there is no health in my bones because of my sin.
4 For my iniquities have gone over my head; like a heavy burden, they are too heavy for me.
5 My wounds stink and fester because of my foolishness,
6 I am utterly bowed down and prostrate; all the day I go about mourning.
7 For my sides are filled with burning, and there is no soundness in my flesh.
8 I am feeble and crushed; I groan because of the tumult of my heart.
9 O Lord, all my longing is before you; my sighing is not hidden from you.
10 My heart throbs; my strength fails me, and the light of my eyes—it also has gone from me.
11 My friends and companions stand aloof from my plague, and my nearest kin stand far off.
Event
Work, Interview encoder, Dad's rehab today
Here and Now
I woke up quite early 4:30AM because I slept at 8PM last night after eating Amigo's Cheese when I was not supposed to snack on anything... I just felt hungry and I ate some snacks. I know it's still Ramadan but I am not fasting like before. I slept early and when I woke up at 9:30PM I realized I had dreamt of Randy trying to have sex with me in a public toilet. It was the strangest dream! I wasn't as bothered about it because I know I don't feel anything for Randy at all. He may look like Stephen but he is so laid back and just nonchalant, not taking on family responsibilities, I do not feel attracted to his physical beauty which is so much like Stephen because his inward personality is so far from Stephen.
SOAP
Scriptures
Torah: Parshat Pekudei, 6th Portion (Shemot (Exodus) 40:17-40:27)
Exodus 40:17-27
English Standard Version
17 In the first month in the second year, on the first day of the month, the tabernacle was erected. 18 Moses erected the tabernacle. He laid its bases, and set up its frames, and put in its poles, and raised up its pillars. 19 And he spread the tent over the tabernacle and put the covering of the tent over it, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 20 He took the testimony and put it into the ark, and put the poles on the ark and set the mercy seat above on the ark. 21 And he brought the ark into the tabernacle and set up the veil of the screen, and screened the ark of the testimony, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 22 He put the table in the tent of meeting, on the north side of the tabernacle, outside the veil, 23 and arranged the bread on it before the Lord, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 24 He put the lampstand in the tent of meeting, opposite the table on the south side of the tabernacle, 25 and set up the lamps before the Lord, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 26 He put the golden altar in the tent of meeting before the veil, 27 and burned fragrant incense on it, as the Lord had commanded Moses.
English Standard Version
17 In the first month in the second year, on the first day of the month, the tabernacle was erected. 18 Moses erected the tabernacle. He laid its bases, and set up its frames, and put in its poles, and raised up its pillars. 19 And he spread the tent over the tabernacle and put the covering of the tent over it, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 20 He took the testimony and put it into the ark, and put the poles on the ark and set the mercy seat above on the ark. 21 And he brought the ark into the tabernacle and set up the veil of the screen, and screened the ark of the testimony, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 22 He put the table in the tent of meeting, on the north side of the tabernacle, outside the veil, 23 and arranged the bread on it before the Lord, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 24 He put the lampstand in the tent of meeting, opposite the table on the south side of the tabernacle, 25 and set up the lamps before the Lord, as the Lord had commanded Moses. 26 He put the golden altar in the tent of meeting before the veil, 27 and burned fragrant incense on it, as the Lord had commanded Moses.
Last Night's Readings
1 Samuel 22-24
Bible in A Year
Numbers 23:27-30; Numbers 24-25; Luke 7:11-35; Psalm 38:1-11
Numbers 24
English Standard VersionBalaam's Third Oracle
1 When Balaam saw that it pleased the Lord to bless Israel, he did not go, as at other times, to look for omens, but set his face toward the wilderness. 2 And Balaam lifted up his eyes and saw Israel camping tribe by tribe. And the Spirit of God came upon him, 3 and he took up his discourse and said,
“The oracle of Balaam the son of Beor, the oracle of the man whose eye is opened,
4 the oracle of him who hears the words of God, who sees the vision of the Almighty,
falling down with his eyes uncovered:
5 How lovely are your tents, O Jacob, your encampments, O Israel!
6 Like palm groves[b] that stretch afar, like gardens beside a river,
like aloes that the Lord has planted, like cedar trees beside the waters.
7 Water shall flow from his buckets, and his seed shall be in many waters;
his king shall be higher than Agag, and his kingdom shall be exalted.
8 God brings him out of Egypt and is for him like the horns of the wild ox;
he shall eat up the nations, his adversaries, and shall break their bones in pieces
and pierce them through with his arrows.
9 He crouched, he lay down like a lion and like a lioness; who will rouse him up?
Blessed are those who bless you, and cursed are those who curse you.”
10 And Balak's anger was kindled against Balaam, and he struck his hands together. And Balak said to Balaam, “I called you to curse my enemies, and behold, you have blessed them these three times. 11 Therefore now flee to your own place. I said, ‘I will certainly honor you,’ but the Lord has held you back from honor.” 12 And Balaam said to Balak, “Did I not tell your messengers whom you sent to me, 13 ‘If Balak should give me his house full of silver and gold, I would not be able to go beyond the word of the Lord, to do either good or bad of my own will. What the Lord speaks, that will I speak’? 14 And now, behold, I am going to my people. Come, I will let you know what this people will do to your people in the latter days.”
Balaam's Final Oracle
15 And he took up his discourse and said, “The oracle of Balaam the son of Beor,
the oracle of the man whose eye is opened,
16 the oracle of him who hears the words of God, and knows the knowledge of the Most High,
who sees the vision of the Almighty, falling down with his eyes uncovered:
17 I see him, but not now; I behold him, but not near:
a star shall come out of Jacob, and a scepter shall rise out of Israel;
it shall crush the forehead[c] of Moab and break down all the sons of Sheth.
18 Edom shall be dispossessed; Seir also, his enemies, shall be dispossessed. Israel is doing valiantly.
19 And one from Jacob shall exercise dominion and destroy the survivors of cities!”
20 Then he looked on Amalek and took up his discourse and said,
“Amalek was the first among the nations, but its end is utter destruction.”
21 And he looked on the Kenite, and took up his discourse and said,
“Enduring is your dwelling place, and your nest is set in the rock.
22 Nevertheless, Kain shall be burned when Asshur takes you away captive.”
23 And he took up his discourse and said, “Alas, who shall live when God does this?
24 But ships shall come from Kittim and shall afflict Asshur and Eber;
and he too shall come to utter destruction.”
25 Then Balaam rose and went back to his place. And Balak also went his way.
Numbers 25
Baal Worship at Peor and the Zeal of Phinehas
Israel engages with sexual immorality among the moabite women but GOD raised Phinehas to execute HIS judgements that led to the plague to stop.
Luke 7:11-35
English Standard Version
Jesus Raises a Widow's Son
11 Soon afterward[a] he went to a town called Nain, and his disciples and a great crowd went with him. 12 As he drew near to the gate of the town, behold, a man who had died was being carried out, the only son of his mother, and she was a widow, and a considerable crowd from the town was with her. 13 And when the Lord saw her, he had compassion on her and said to her, “Do not weep.” 14 Then he came up and touched the bier, and the bearers stood still. And he said, “Young man, I say to you, arise.” 15 And the dead man sat up and began to speak, and Jesus[b] gave him to his mother. 16 Fear seized them all, and they glorified God, saying, “A great prophet has arisen among us!” and “God has visited his people!” 17 And this report about him spread through the whole of Judea and all the surrounding country.
Messengers from John the Baptist
18 The disciples of John reported all these things to him. And John, 19 calling two of his disciples to him, sent them to the Lord, saying, “Are you the one who is to come, or shall we look for another?” 20 And when the men had come to him, they said, “John the Baptist has sent us to you, saying, ‘Are you the one who is to come, or shall we look for another?’” 21 In that hour he healed many people of diseases and plagues and evil spirits, and on many who were blind he bestowed sight. 22 And he answered them, “Go and tell John what you have seen and heard: the blind receive their sight, the lame walk, lepers[c] are cleansed, and the deaf hear, the dead are raised up, the poor have good news preached to them. 23 And blessed is the one who is not offended by me.”
24 When John's messengers had gone, Jesus[d] began to speak to the crowds concerning John: “What did you go out into the wilderness to see? A reed shaken by the wind? 25 What then did you go out to see? A man dressed in soft clothing? Behold, those who are dressed in splendid clothing and live in luxury are in kings' courts. 26 What then did you go out to see? A prophet? Yes, I tell you, and more than a prophet. 27 This is he of whom it is written,
“‘Behold, I send my messenger before your face,
who will prepare your way before you.’
28 I tell you, among those born of women none is greater than John. Yet the one who is least in the kingdom of God is greater than he.” 29 (When all the people heard this, and the tax collectors too, they declared God just,[e] having been baptized with the baptism of John, 30 but the Pharisees and the lawyers rejected the purpose of God for themselves, not having been baptized by him.)
31 “To what then shall I compare the people of this generation, and what are they like? 32 They are like children sitting in the marketplace and calling to one another,
“‘We played the flute for you, and you did not dance;
we sang a dirge, and you did not weep.’
33 For John the Baptist has come eating no bread and drinking no wine, and you say, ‘He has a demon.’ 34 The Son of Man has come eating and drinking, and you say, ‘Look at him! A glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners!’ 35 Yet wisdom is justified by all her children.”
Psalm 38:1-11
English Standard Version
Do Not Forsake Me, O Lord
A Psalm of David, for the memorial offering.
1 O Lord, rebuke me not in your anger, nor discipline me in your wrath!
2 For your arrows have sunk into me, and your hand has come down on me.
3 There is no soundness in my flesh because of your indignation;
there is no health in my bones because of my sin.
4 For my iniquities have gone over my head; like a heavy burden, they are too heavy for me.
5 My wounds stink and fester because of my foolishness,
6 I am utterly bowed down and prostrate; all the day I go about mourning.
7 For my sides are filled with burning, and there is no soundness in my flesh.
8 I am feeble and crushed; I groan because of the tumult of my heart.
9 O Lord, all my longing is before you; my sighing is not hidden from you.
10 My heart throbs; my strength fails me, and the light of my eyes—it also has gone from me.
11 My friends and companions stand aloof from my plague, and my nearest kin stand far off.
Observation
1 Samuel 22
David at the Cave of Adullam has been seeking refuge from the mad king Saul and so his family now sides with David and people who are in distress or had problems became David's followers so that he became a leader to 400 men and so he left his parents with the King of Moab to care for them for a while that he has to keep running from Saul. David was honorable towards his parents.
Saul kills the Priests of Nob because of his hatred and jealousy towards David that whoever sides with David he will kill because he is trying to kill David out of his anger.
1 Samuel 23
David saves the City of Keilah
Saul pursues David but Jonathan Saul's son encourages David in the hardest times of his life.
1 Samuel 24
David spares Saul's Life and so David proved to be righteous towards Saul that he never intended to harm his father in law in anyway but it was only Saul's jealousy that drove him to kill David who had fought for him and served him many years.
Application
In the books of Samuel I am assured that even in the hardest times of my life, GOD will send people to encourage me so that I do not lose heart. That I am to honor my parents because this pleases GOD so much. That I should not be like Saul who killed (disconnected) those who are still connected to my enemies because they are not really siding anything, sometimes my own negative over thinking will harm me if I cut off those who are still connected with my enemies. It certainly does not mean that Anacel sides with Jonathan and Lyn, she's being civil with them. I believe GOD is answering the questions and worries of my mind when HE gave me this word last night regarding Saul's paranoya that led him to murder the Priests of GOD. In my heart, I do not want to cut off Anacel because she's doing good with her job with us as book keeper. But just in case in the future she will be not worthy, I will have to prepare a back up plan to secure the fortress of my family.
In the book of Numbers I am assured that even if Lyn is trying to curse my family, she would not be able to, because even the witch whom she will hire will tell her that GOD has blessed us because we are HIS servants and that every curse or negative word she speaks against us will backfire on her. Blessed are those who bless us and cursed will be those that curse us. May the LORD be glorified in our lives today. May HE bring justice to me and redeem me from all the pain I have gone through.
Prayers
Dear AVI,
HOLY HOLY HOLY is YOUR Name YESHUA YAHUAH KING of Glory, Creator of the Universe!!! O GOD Almighty, thank YOU for YOUR WORD, wow! Very very profound very very deep. I am praying for YOUR grace and mercy upon me all the time because I am depending on YOU, when I do not know what to do I will seek YOU, I will seek YOUR Guidance, everyday I lean on YOU, to lead me, to comfort me, to help me overcome all the challenges of this cruel world. O GOD Almighty, thank YOU for speaking YOUR Truth to me and assuring me so much through YOUR WORD that indeed YOUR WORD has divided my soul from my spirit. Indeed, it is talking sense out of the nonsense that my over critical and traumatized mind will lead me to do. O GOD, I am just wondering I had a dream aboout Randy trying to have sex with me in the public toilet. That is so disgusting! I say he was only trying because in the dream, he did not take off his pants, he just pushed himself to me but with clothes. It's so weird, but I pray that I will be able to discover the truth of that stupid dream. But LORD, I know I am desiring to have love and sex with my husband, whoever he is, I pray that he will love me, when he sees me, right away let it be known to him, to his heart and feelings, let him not deny it towards himself, let him pursue me O GOD, whoever he is, let him already be YOUR Son, who loves YOU and knows YOU and follows YOU. Do not let me have a hard time praying for that man, seeing him not love YOU, I am in pain O GOD because of what happened with Stephen. I never even liked him at the beginning because he was ugly to my eyes, he was very chinese and white, so far from my type. But since YOU spoke to me about him in the middle of the night at 2AM on September 20, 2023, Isaiah 34:16, and YOU even used Ming gay to confirm it the next day at Dove St. Oakridge!!! Then YOU keep speaking to me about him on September 23, 2023 Isaiah 42 and then finally on September 24, 2023 until Yom Kimpur the next day, YOU gave me Isaiah 43 that I ought to forget what I have been desiring since 12 years ago to marry a man born in Zion an Israelite foreign national to be exact! because YOU are doing a New thing in Isaiah 43:18-19. YOU are the ONE who spoke all these WORDS to me O GOD that is why I have fallen for Stephen, and I prayed for him with fasting but YOU have not answered any of those. Now I am certain because YOU gave me a new WORD on March 25, 2025 in 1 Samuel 15 that YOU have rejected this king YOU have pointed to me because he has rejected YOUR WORD!!! But look at me O GOD how broken I am because YOU told me and now YOU change YOUR mind, YOU regret chosing him, but what about me??? Should I also regret believing with YOU and asking for YOUR Will to be done??? I beg of YOU to give me an even better replacement, far better than Stephen will ever be, because I want YOU to make up for every wrong and every pain that I have gone through in this life. Please KING JESUS, bring us together, my husband and I so that we can serve YOU before YOU come back for us YOUR Bride. I know that the time is nearing for YOUR return, please KING JESUS allow me to experience a love like how much YOU love me, I want to see it in a man's eyes. Heaven on earth! YOU promised me, please do not change YOUR Mind to bless me with a husband who will love YOU with me. LORD, I trust YOU to make everything right for me, I trust YOU to redeem me and restore me more than double than what the enemy has done against me. I pray the healing of my parents, in their spirit, soul and mind. I pray for the deliverance and salvation of Janie Rose and her beloved Mark, Erwin and Leah Pios, Celsa, Stephen and his mother Benita and all the rest of the LaoYu Family, I pray for salvation even for the Muslems all over the world who are fasting and seeking Allah, maythey find YASU AL MASIH because YOU are the true and living GOD whom we love. O GOD, I pray for everyone working for us to have honesty and pureness of heart. O GOD protect us and let YOUR will always be done in our lives, for YOU and the LORD our GOD who is worthy of all honor, glory and praise!!! YOU deserve all our devotion, love and worship O GOD KING of Israel!
In the Name of YESUA My King Amen!
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