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Wednesday 28 May 2025

Wednesday, 1 Sivan 5785 / May 28, 2025

Event
Lunch with Aunt Mary, Meeting with New Book keeper




Here and Now
I woke up early with sounds from outside, so I washed my face, brushed, pooped and went to see what happened. But while I was in my alpha state, I was more aware of my subconscious telling me that Dominic is the One for me. Somehow something inside me just feels that Dominic is the One who can make me happy, he is the one GOD chose, and he will come back to me after he is fully healed and realizing the truth, filled with GOD's Spirit, he will one day win my heart. Because I felt that GOD is trying to speak to me after I did something bold last night, I had registered in a Christian Coaching and dating site right after I was with friends celebrating Ming's birthday. I went home earlier than the rest because I couldn't stand being in the company of friends, when I should already be having my own family, enjoying love with my husband. So I went home, wanting to do something about my situation, I will open my mind to any possible thing and take steps towards my dream of having the love I have always prayed for in a husband and family we will build. But the more I tried to do something for myself, to find options and know other people, the more I felt GOD was pointing me to Dominic, as of this time, I don't know if I should trust my feelings or what I am receiving from GOD. But during the wee hours of the night somewhere 3-4AM where I am also in my alpha state, I always feel and imagine Dominic is praying for me, because he comes to my thoughts, to my Spirit, to the core of my being.

SOAP

Scriptures

Torah Parshat Bamidbar, 4th Portion (Bamidbar (Numbers) 3:1-3:13)
 
Numbers 3:1-13
English Standard Version 
The Sons of Aaron
1 These are the generations of Aaron and Moses at the time when the Lord spoke with Moses on Mount Sinai. 2 These are the names of the sons of Aaron: Nadab the firstborn, and Abihu, Eleazar, and Ithamar. 3 These are the names of the sons of Aaron, the anointed priests, whom he ordained to serve as priests. 4 But Nadab and Abihu died before the Lord when they offered unauthorized fire before the Lord in the wilderness of Sinai, and they had no children. So Eleazar and Ithamar served as priests in the lifetime of Aaron their father.
Duties of the Levites
5 And the Lord spoke to Moses, saying, 6 “Bring the tribe of Levi near, and set them before Aaron the priest, that they may minister to him. 7 They shall keep guard over him and over the whole congregation before the tent of meeting, as they minister at the tabernacle. 8 They shall guard all the furnishings of the tent of meeting, and keep guard over the people of Israel as they minister at the tabernacle. 9 And you shall give the Levites to Aaron and his sons; they are wholly given to him from among the people of Israel. 10 And you shall appoint Aaron and his sons, and they shall guard their priesthood. But if any outsider comes near, he shall be put to death.”
11 And the Lord spoke to Moses, saying, 12 “Behold, I have taken the Levites from among the people of Israel instead of every firstborn who opens the womb among the people of Israel. The Levites shall be mine, 13 for all the firstborn are mine. On the day that I struck down all the firstborn in the land of Egypt, I consecrated for my own all the firstborn in Israel, both of man and of beast. They shall be mine: I am the Lord.”


WWCF Readings
Job 8-10


Bible in A Year
1 Samuel 21-23; John 18:1-24; Proverbs 13:10-19

John 18:1-24
English Standard Version
Betrayal and Arrest of Jesus
1 When Jesus had spoken these words, he went out with his disciples across the brook Kidron, where there was a garden, which he and his disciples entered. 2 Now Judas, who betrayed him, also knew the place, for Jesus often met there with his disciples. 3 So Judas, having procured a band of soldiers and some officers from the chief priests and the Pharisees, went there with lanterns and torches and weapons. 4 Then Jesus, knowing all that would happen to him, came forward and said to them, “Whom do you seek?” 5 They answered him, “Jesus of Nazareth.” Jesus said to them, “I am he.”[a] Judas, who betrayed him, was standing with them. 6 When Jesus[b] said to them, “I am he,” they drew back and fell to the ground. 7 So he asked them again, “Whom do you seek?” And they said, “Jesus of Nazareth.” 8 Jesus answered, “I told you that I am he. So, if you seek me, let these men go.” 9 This was to fulfill the word that he had spoken: “Of those whom you gave me I have lost not one.” 10 Then Simon Peter, having a sword, drew it and struck the high priest's servant[c] and cut off his right ear. (The servant's name was Malchus.) 11 So Jesus said to Peter, “Put your sword into its sheath; shall I not drink the cup that the Father has given me?”

Proverbs 13:10-19
English Standard Version
10 By insolence comes nothing but strife, but with those who take advice is wisdom.
11 Wealth gained hastily[a] will dwindle, but whoever gathers little by little will increase it.
12 Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a desire fulfilled is a tree of life.
13 Whoever despises the word[b] brings destruction on himself,
but he who reveres the commandment[c] will be rewarded.
14 The teaching of the wise is a fountain of life, that one may turn away from the snares of death.
15 Good sense wins favor, but the way of the treacherous is their ruin.[d]
16 Every prudent man acts with knowledge, but a fool flaunts his folly.

17 A wicked messenger falls into trouble, but a faithful envoy brings healing.
18 Poverty and disgrace come to him who ignores instruction, but whoever heeds reproof is honored.
19 A desire fulfilled is sweet to the soul, but to turn away from evil is an abomination to fools.


Observation
Of all the verses I read, it's the ones in Proverbs 13 speaking to me the most. About desires fulfilled, like a tree of life, a desire fulfilled sweet to the soul. Only the LORD will fulfill every desire of my soul, I have been waiting for him to fulfill me, as HE is fulfilling the purpose I am in, I am waiting on HIM to fill the desires of my heart and soul, my body and Spirit. 


Application
My spirit longs for a deep connection with someone just as I was connected to Arlene and realized she was my cousin in the Spirit, I desired this connection with my husband. We should be connected like this first before any connection could happen in our soul and body because the heart is deceitful. But I will lay down all my desires before GOD my FATHER, because HE alone understands the anguish, the need, the pain I have been through waiting for HIM to fulfill these desires for me. 


Prayers
Dear AVI,
Blessed are YOU O LORD YESHUA KING of the Universe! Blessed is YOUR HOLY Name, for YOU are faithful and true and YOU are merciful and loving to YOUR children. O GOD, I don't know if these things I am receiving is coming from YOU but I want to ask YOU let me meet as many people as possible, let me meet as many men who I can know or be friends with, and teach me how and why YOU have chosen someone for me, when he returns to me. Help me O GOD, to be able to enjoy this season of waiting and healing. Heal me from all my past trauma and pain so that I do not damage the relationship I have with my husband so that when I meet him, I am already whole. I pray O GOD, help me to just enjoy this time, to seize every opportunity to serve YOU as I wait on YOU, to become the best version of me and to be happy and hopeful knowing that YOU are so faithful to answer every prayer in my heart. Thank YOU that YOU will indeed fulfill the desires of my Spirit, heart, soul and body. Thank YOU for YOU always give more than YOU ask or imagine. Thank YOU that YOU heal my father and mother, that YOU are delivering and healing Dominic from his past mistakes and sins, that YOU are doing the same for Janie Rose and Jeah, that YOU are saving Erwin and Leah. I pray that YOU humble Anacel and direct me today if we are to get this new book keeper Charito. I pray that YOU bless indeed Aunt Mary and our time together, may YOU be with us and reveal YOUR glory to us. I pray to meet as many men to get to know and chose and let me understand who is it that YOU have chosen. I pray that YOU heal Lisa the helper and keep safe Teodora the old helper. I pray that YOU will take care of everything concerning me. Thank YOU for healing Bear my puppy and please provide homes for the puppies LORD. For YOU deserve all the glory honor and praise!!!

In the Name of YESHUA HaMashiach My GOD Amen! 

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